full of things....

after lunch on Thursday with the director of transportation and public safety for the state of ohio things really starting looking nice!!! I extremely proud of my much older cousin's accomplishments and to know that family does look out for one another! Henry is going to help me possibly land a job with the state so I am totally excited about that...I guess good things do happen when you apply yourself instead of waiting for things to come your way you have to pursue them and network!!

sooo I like the new job, don't get me wrong but for the past month they've been having me work turn around shifts, like Saturday night I work 3-11 then Sunday morning 7-3 and clearly I don't get home much before 11:30 Saturday and have to be up before 6 on Sunday so pretty much Sunday is shot for me because I am too tired to do anything so finally after voicing this to my supervisor who informed me when I was hired they wouldn't schedule me like that (funny that lasted a whole 3 days) I mentioned it to my GM and other manager to hopefully get that addressed because every weekend is begining to get OLD fast people!!

other than that just wedding planning and giving advice to my ladies!! I dunno what it is but now that I'm engaged I am way more concerned with helping my friends with their boy issues than I am with my personal issues because I want to see them be as happy as I am now. Honestly these ladies deserve it after having to deal with my boy issues through the years!!! And recently I've been throwing some advice to my mentor about boys...cRaZy I know but its nice to be able to help her out even if its making her laugh about it b/c she has taught me so much!!

excited for graduation!!!

sooo looking over my classes I'm realizing that graduation is closer than I thought, seems like just yesterday I was starting college. I just can't believe three years have come and gone alreay!! In preparation today I went and bought my commencement dress with making make-up of course :) then while sitting at work I did some online browsing and found my graduation present that my dad said he was going to get for me. Well I found a few possibilities that he can choose from because he said he was going to come and wanted to get me something that I wanted because I deserved it after my hardwork. It feels nice to know that after all we have been through that my dad is proud of the woman I have grown to be and everything that I have accomplished so far in life. Although he wasn't there while I was growing up especially times when I needed him knowing now that he still kept track of me doesn't fill that void but it is something I suppose. Hopefully he sticks to his word and actually does come on June 8 like he promised. That will be a nice start to attempting a real relationship with him. So things are truely looking up for this girl and I can't wait to start another new chapter of my life!!

realizations....

sometimes there comes a point in your life when you realize what really matters... and let go of the petty things to focus your attention on the bigger picture. the small fights here and there just aren't worth the time or effort anymore... and you start to wonder if its even necessary to try and salvage it? most likely it isn't if it is a constant thing, just let by gones be by gones and let it go.... that's just what has been on my mind...

angry at OSU

so it is week 5 of my last quarter at OSU and I am getting madder as each class goes on. I have taken 3 courses in 3 different departments with completely different titles that have taught the EXACT same content, almost word for word I don't even take notes I just refer to the other class notes and yet for some reason they were all required and of course cost a nice amount. not to complain about the cost because I am on scholarships but I feel as though I am along with others being cheated covering the same content in all these courses. Why is it that the administration only teaches the "safe' topics in the field of psychology and we don't learn about the types of things we are likely to face in our careers? Realistically we aren't going to be dealing with the happy-go-lucky cases we hear about in class but never talk about the disturbed individuals? How is that supposed to prepare us for life after college? Maybe I am just bitter because having taken classes at a different college prior to OSU the structure and topics that were covered were different and actually explored those gray areas I now see what is missing. Oh well thats all for now... just remember to question what is presented and always search for the answers beyond what is given.

frustrated and tired...great way to start

sooo after working until 11 last night I am back here again 7-3 today... the job is fine but the hours are killing me!! Working 40 hours a week at this job and aother 5-6 at the internship and having strictly two days off (the two days I have class from 9-9) isn't working... I requested a reduction in hours until I graduate to drop down to 32 hours that has to be granted or else I dunno...lets not have that happen..

I'm just cranky and tired for now... waiting to go home and nap with the puppies and possibly visit the family